I haven't been doing much lately.. just school work, football, exams, and looking after the garden that ojii-san gave to me for Christmas. It's still kinda early to plant anything yet, and the ground's still frozen some mornings, so I've just been preparing it more than anything. I never ever thought I'd like gardening, but thanks to my ojii-san I do, its so cool watching things that you planted grow into big plants and pretty flowers!

I think I've grown taller.. *blinks* some of my trousers are like.. showing my ankles, and Shizu-chan isn't taller than me no more. Jou hasn't been calling me squirt either.. did I grow taller? *blinks, tries to check*...

A lot of bad things have been happening lately. I think it goes in phases.. good and bad. Sounds normal, but on this island it goes in extremes. I'm just really lucky that I wasn't hit as hard as my niisama, Jou, or Shizu-chan.

( Private )

Well I'm off to feed Mister Fluffy.. though he has gotten kinda fat lately.

Happy Birthday Shizu-chan!

Your my age now! *beams* Its really fun being eleven! :D

I hope you have a really really REALLY fun day!

Love,

Moku-chan

I feel lots better now! ^_^ Niisama and Jou helped me to understand and I feel so much better now! I'm sorry Shizuka.. I didn't mean to make you cry. I was just being selfish.. it won't happen again, okay?

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I'm living with my niisama and niisan-Jou now! And Shizu-chan, a little girl who we found in the park, when a bad man was trying to do bad things to her. So I went and saved her, an' now she calls me her hero.. *smiles a little* An' niisama said she could stay, which is really really cool! Cos our rooms weren't ready yet, we got to sleep in niisama and niisan-Jou's bed *grins* But cos there wouldn't be enough room for ALL of us, they ended up sleeping downstairs, so we got the really big bed ALL to ourselves!

I don't think they liked sleeping on the couch though.. cos I went down to get some of Mister Fluffy's food for him one night, an' they were all squidged up on that couch! And my niisama and niisan-Jou might be really really thin, but they're both so tall, so I dunno how they fit on there! It's really cool that they went through that just so we could get a good bed.. I love them both very much. *beams*

( About my Shizu-chan )

Tsuzuki has been looking after us after school cos niisan-Jou dosen't finish school until much later (that must SUCK D:) and niisama dosen't finish work until much MUCH later. I've missed Tsuzuki.. he seems so lonely. I'm still worried about him.. I know Duo-niisan sees him every day, but .. I wish there was some way I could.. umm know that he was okay. I think he's hiding something... *frowns*

My niisama is so ( awesome! )

School.. has been kinda sucky lately..( Oww..~ )

I'm gonna go play with Mister Fluffy.. he's been acting really strange lately. He's usually really mean to everyone, but here he's only mean to Jou-niisan.

Thanks to Tsuzuki, everyhing got sorted out! We um.. we had a dinner party, and we invited Duo-niisan, niisama, and Jou-niisan because I don't think he was feeling very well. I got very worried, but Tsuzuki was so cool, and nice, and he um. .he explained to everyone why I felt so bad. So we got it sorted, an' I don't think anyone got hurt, cos I was really worried about that.

So I'm gonna go live with niisama, cos he's got a huge house, an' me an' Mister Fluffy will get our own room! We're gonna wait a bit, cos things are all complicated for niisama and Jou-niisan at the moment *wrinkles nose a little* ...I dunno.. I think Jou-niisan is.. not well or something? It's making him and niisama sad, so I want them to work things out.

Me and Mister Fluffy went to see niisama yesterday! Mister Fluffy enjoyed niisama's house very much, he stole Jounouchi-kun's socks and made a nest with them. Niisama said it was okay, since it was Jounouchi-kun's fault since he had left them there!

I learnt something very.. um... weird when I was there. Me and niisama.. we're real brothers. He's my real brother... cos.. cos we both shared this same dream, about a nasty man with grey hair.. and and we both have the same marks on our hands, exactly the same, and he said that was the umm.. the mark of the Kaiba brothers.

And.. its all coming back to me... bit by bit. Like um.. I remember that niisama got me my Blue Eyes... he got her to protect me. There's a lot of blank bits still, but I remember my niisama! He's my niisama.. my real niisama!

( Private Musings )

Sleeping on the couch is fun! Cos Duo-niisan's boyfriend moved in with us, me, Bub and Blue Eyes got kicked out of the bed. But that's okay, cos now I get to share a room with Mister Fluffy! Well, he's still in his little house, but he's still in the same room! Sometimes he gets out in the night, and in the morning, he's curled up on my head. He likes my head for some reason.. maybe it's the hair?

Mister Fluffy has been starting to behave better lately. He still ignores Duo-niisan when he tries to talk to him, but I still think that's because his voice isn't squeaky enough. But but, Mister Fluffy knows how to catch his food pellets now! It's so cool, you throw them to him and he leaps up and catches it! Every time! I wonder if there are competitions or something for that kinda thing!

Uh.. .Duo-niisan?

...have you seen Mister Fluffy anywhere? O.O

It's my birthday today! ^_^ I'm eleven! That means I'm nearly nearly NEARLY a teenager! ^_^

I had such a weird dream last night! I mean really weird... like.. um... it was when I was really really young. I dunno how I knew I was young, I just felt.. young, if that makes any sense. Kinda.. like a little kid! And.. I was in a room, and it looked like a .. um.. classroom I think. I dunno, that part was blurry.

I was playing chess. Chess...I dunno how to play chess! But I was sat opposite this older boy and he looked so.. familiar. I don't know him I don't think.. but he looked like.. .someone I should. Ahh.. this dosen't make sense!

He had short brown hair, and blue eyes. Umm.. he was taller than me... and he was..I..I dunno. But he was familiar.

Ohh this is coming out so rubbish! Shouldn't try and explain when I've just woken up..

I got my plushie back! Niisama got my plushie back! ^__^ Thank you niisama, thank you everyone who looked! ^_^ Thank you..

But niisama got hurt doing it..

Duo niisan's place is fun ^_^ We had lots and lots of chinese food that was really really nice, and I get to sleep with Duo niisan and his FooFoo. I really wish Blue Eyes could be here, cos she'd really like it. It's harder to sleep without her, even though Duo niisan's bed is really comfy and warm.

I'm gonna go look for her again today when Duo niisan goes to work.

Where's my Blue Eyes? I've lost my Blue Eyes, where is she?! I feel sick. .I dunno where she is, I dunno.. I ... where... I dunno... I can't. .remember. I.. I want my Blue Eyes. Where.. where is she?! I didn't leave.. they're wrong, I didn't go anywhere.. .I was here, but I wasn't.. I didn't leave her..where is she?!

They're WRONG! They're.. .THEY'RE lying! I.. I wouldn't ...I didn't... I want to.. Blue Eyes... I...I don't UNDERSTAND. Why..why don't I remember?! I.. I want her so much...

I made a new friend today! ^_^ His name is Momiji, and he's really really nice. He has a plushie called BunBun, so all of our plushies start with B ^_^ We talked about our favourite animals, colours, food, and why Jounouchi-kun could have four stomachs *giggles*

I hope I get to meet him again soon! And I hope this sneezing stops *pouts*

I had to give Blue Eyes a bath today. She got toffee on her, so I had to wash it out before it got all gross and sticky. I think I got it all out, and now she's all super fluffy and clean cos I dried her with mum's hair dryer.

I keep sneezing for some reason *pouts* It's annoying, I dunno why.

Seto-san was very nice, and let me see his drawings the other day! He even gave me a copy of them, I've got it on the wall above my bed so me and Blue Eyes can see it at night. It's comforting.. I dunno how, but its like... it belongs there.

Seto-san is funny! He's so nice, and when I spoke with him.. umm.. you know when you do a play, and you learn your lines? It was like that, like I knew just what to say...

....odd.

Oh.. and thank you all for being so nice to me about my nightmare ^_^ You made me feel LOADS happier! I'm so lucky to have friends like you!

I had such a scary dream last night. I dreamt I was running towards that tall man, and I really really wanted to reach him, I felt so tired, but I kept running, cos I knew I had to reach him. But he seemed SO far away, and then when I finally reached him, my fingertips were nearly touching his, I froze. He froze as well, and I couldn't move, couldn't breathe. I was so scared, I just wanted to reach out for him, I wanted him, I wanted my plushie.

I woke up crying really upset, and I couldn't get back to sleep, even with my plushie. It felt so real, it was like I had been para.... para.... not able to move! It was so scary..

...I was screaming to the figure in my dream.

I was screaming niisama

Hi! ^_^ I saw a lot of people in this area had these journal things, so I had to get one, just to see what was so great about them. I noticed that lots of you have been having weird dreams.. me too!

I keep dreamin' bout this really really tall man. His back is always to me, but I can almost make out his face, but he NEVER turns around. I get a jolt that says I recognise him, but I really don't. Also there's a weird kinda warmth.. right in my heart... its.. hard to explain ^^;

Well.. um, hi again! ^_^ Hope you don't all think I'm weird or something.